my grandma..

so today i went to church and after crying through some of the songs, i went shopping.. it always helps when i shop, not necessarily for me, just shopping in general.. :) but i bought some REALLY cute things for my little niece. :) which they all come in about 51 days!!! :) :) :) 

the littlest things will make me cry and sometimes its not what i would think would make me.. like today a couple things set me off..which it looks REAL funny when youre walking through a store and you see something that reminds you of something grandma "D" would say or sing or talked about and you start to cry....

the other day i was throwing away a magazine and thought to myself grandma would NEVER throw this away because she would go through it and find things to tear out so we, the grandkids, could paste :) it wasnt even a magazine that she would get (Shape) but still she would find SOMETHING to tear out for us.

i was also thinking about when i would go over to her house over the summer when my mom would go to work, i'd run back to the back room where she was always still laying at 8:30 and would lay next to her in bed. she would always tell me "lets play a game, whoever can stay still and be quiet the longest will get a prize" i think she knew how competitive i was because i always tried to beat her..but the REAL reason for her saying this is because she knew i would fall asleep until at least 10:30 or 11 and that would give her time by herself :) 

another thing we would do is she would put all her spare change in a medicine bottle and when i would go over to her house i would walk down a couple blocks to taco bell and get us lunch. she would sit at the door in her wheel chair so she couldnt do anything if something did happen to me but she sat there and waited for me to come back. she would have the phone in her lap just in case as well and its not like i had a cell phone she could call..

my grandma LOVED the song "His Eye is on the Sparrow" and i found it on ebay, but it is on a record and i dont know of a place to take it to convert it to cd..if anyone knows of a place, let me know because i'd like to get a cd of that song. 

i miss her SO much, sometimes i dont want to get out of bed because i miss her so much and i want to see her. i sometimes will think of something to tell her and i can't because i cant call her. 

i have to go for now..but i just wanted to say thank you to everyone that prayed for me this week..it was appreciated..